"There is a stone in my heart"
This is what I said earlier today. It's a big cold stone, and it's heavy. Probably more heavy than cold. If you take a really long, hot shower or bath, and then drink a full glass of ice water, you'd get some idea of how it feels. It hurts and it makes you want to tear your insides out. A little.
I have a logic loop in my life that brings new meaning to "vicious cycle." I want X but can't have X because of Y and Y is non-negociable, but even if it weren't I'd want Z - and Z is not good for me. So I have A. Except I can't really enjoy A because of X. And so we're back at the beginning. Whee!
Toss in some emotional baggage, a history of psychotropic drug use, and at least one severe blow to the head, mix and enjoy.
I know I don't.
Posted by Matt at April 17, 2003 12:50 AM