OK, I"m still going to update "the ugly" part of my bigass party.
Where are you? WHERE? I'm all alone and I'm trying to figure out what to do and where are you? All I want to do is the right thing and no matter which direction I go in, it's still the same painful mess. It's still the I-don't-know-what-I-should-do miasma that makes me paralyzed and afraid. Where are you? I see verdant hills over there, and I see peaks of hopefull mountains over there. I see possibilities and potentials besieging me from all sides. Which is the right way to go? What is the right thing to do? Where are you???
We are the champions that are here to show everyone how it should be - no matter how much it isn't. I am the hero who wages constant war on myself without the satisfaction of conclusion or resolution. I am the lost. I cannot do this alone. I need you. I need help. Pick me up and weild me as I was meant to be held and used. I can't do this alone. I can't.
I love you.
Posted by Matt at November 6, 2002 09:34 PM