The Open Matt Project

Hot air and beer

It's been shockingly hot out for the past couple of days. I mean real nice heat. I spent a good majority of the time at Jupiter, outside with smokes and beer. I still basically hate the place, but it does in a pinch.

Yesterday there was a massive watergun fight, involving about 8 water guns in healthy rotation. Getting wet was not a punishment, it was a reward - so there were a lot of faux gunfights. I loved it. Getting wet lasted only about 10 minutes, since the heat would make it all evaporate.

Today there was more of same. Waterguns, heat, beer, and laughs. Again, I loved it.

But, despite the good times, both nights I found myself at home post-fun and feeling empty and confused. I don't want to think that I'm just a depressive person, but sometimes it's hard to see otherwise. Spending time with people who are really not doesn't help. I keep pushing myself to spend time with people who are generally high-energy and active, but more often than not it just contrasts my recitance rather than amplifying my desire to act. I just don't know.

Posted by Matt at June 27, 2003 12:54 AM