I think I don't want to let go because if I really do let go, I'll have to accept that true love really can die. I don't believe that now...aaaand I don't want to believe it ever. I think pretty much everything but true love is transient and I... I guess I'm just unwilling to let that go too.
Maybe I'm just crazy. No, really, I mean that.
Posted by Matt at September 9, 2003 02:12 AMWell, I've actually been asking myself those same questions for some time now. Originally the site started as a katharsis outlet. Then I decided to make it a part of my social life and changed the name to Openmatt to indicate such. More recently I've found that too many people have used that openness against me, and I've reconsidered my connections with them - and with the site.
Some have noted that the content has become less despaired and more mundane. It remains to be seen what that means.
I'm glad you enjoyed visiting. Thanks for writing!
Posted by: Matt at September 10, 2003 06:05 PMMatt. I just stumbled apon your website, looking up the classic 'why does there seem to be two sides to me, and how the hell can they be reconciled?'- and i just wanted to know- Who are you and why are you doing this? Is your website just for friends or do you have some purpose for the bigger picture, i.e for others like me who are going through similar things. I've never heard anyone talk like you, you paint a pretty vivid picture and fuck me you know about people, or you certainly know about me and about how I feel about things. I would like to know your purpose as im going through and feeling similar things, and can't figure out where to go with it all. Is it postmodernity or is it just fuckin love? That's what i'd like to know! Are you doing this to explore yourself, or for others to see what you have been through, so as they may see that they are not so mad, or bad like me? Im intriqued-let me know.Nice to meet you - The postmodern queen- Miss Shirley Ann Fyfe.
Posted by: Shirley at September 10, 2003 10:41 AM