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Sundae is the Lords Day

Another quiet Sunday. I've been saying for years now that I dont drink, or smoke, or whatever it is that's being offered, on Sundays. It's the lord's day, I explain.

I've confused a lot of people with that, since I've been one of the least religious people most of my friends and acquaintences know. At least as far as they know that's the case. I like to play coy with my affiliations, particularly when the almighty is involved.

What is not so mysterious is how much I love Sundays. They really are my I-don't-have-to-run days. I don't understand why, but no matter how bad things are or how frustrated or angry I might be, it is soothed and washed away over the course of the day. By the evening, I'm almost always feeling relaxed and more settled.

This morning I awoke from one of those tear-jerking sad dreams that I have on occasion. I knew that I'd have to go downstairs and redistribute the garbage from the two large bags I had left to three small bags. The garbagemen refused to take the large ones last week, so there was no way around this one. The end result was digging through rotting food, bathroom scraps (tampons, toilet paper, etc.), and broken glass. Anyone who knows me knows that being elbow-deep in filth is going to poke my clean hands OCD, so let's just say this was somewhat olympic for me. It wasn't fun but I got it done.

Then I talked with Jim and found myself going over the recent frustrations with my social scene. Skipping the meat of the plot (lies, betrayal, anger, redemption, etc. etc.), I'll just say it didn't make my mood better. I tried to settle into some games or TV. No dice. I just felt, somewhat correctly, that my life was empty and aimless. I surrendered the day to the gathering clouds.

A sinkload of washed dishes, a phone order of my favorite sushi, and a new episode of Law and Order later - I feel much better. Much. It's quiet now, both outside and in. Maybe the lord has something to do with it, maybe not, but I can't help but think to myself - wouldn't it be cool if he did?

Posted by Matt at November 9, 2003 08:29 PM