Last night I went to go see Alice Donut, a band I was an enormous fan of when I was in my teen years. No big surprise, the band had a wide assortment of anti-establishment songs. I went largely out of an overwhelming dose of nostalgia, and found myself headbanging as if more than a decade hadn't passed.
Part of me stood there, rockin' out, thinking, "how the fuck did I become a republican?"
I watched the last episode of The Sopranos, where Tony talks about his depression in rage terminology. "It's all just fucking bullshit!" he says, and I reflexively agree. I understand completely.
I read an article about how the brain works, and how it's only the final stages of thought that eliminate the outright stupid decisions, and think to myself how I've deliberately rejected that framework. I know what's "right" and "wrong" and yet I find that those parameters are derived from flimsy or outright false premises. Mostly, the boundaries are designed from fear.
Bullshit. Endless bullshit.
I'm too drunk to go on. Reading this, you know all those things you will not share with anyone else. Your selfish desires, your miseries, your weaknesses. It only makes sense to hold them close and silent, but it's the very comfort you recieve from maintaining their secret nature that creates the environment of bullshit we're all faced with.
Myself included.
Posted by Matt at May 22, 2004 02:50 AMalice donut fucking rocks and anyone who says anything else deserves painful purgatory.
waittaminnit - i already said that, and it still isn't actually apropos.
great show tho'. i did have to ask myself during the opener (the fleshies) whether they sucked or i was just old. it's a fine line between punk rock and group therapy/acting-out sometimes.
I am very impressed to see that you went to a show!
I send HUGE hugs and "aya"s. Hope to see you on Wed. No, scratch that. I will be hella pissed if you are not there. But I know you will be so...
Posted by: scratchymonkey at May 23, 2004 12:28 AMThat was the last ep of the Sopranos? Bummer. I wondered how you became a republican as well, then I knew. I am just surprised that it took you this long to "become one"
Posted by: d0g_p00p at May 22, 2004 07:19 PMi like this post.
Posted by: fishfry at May 22, 2004 10:37 AM